Something that I knew was over was a friendship. I had an all girls friendship in middle school from 6th to 8th grade. Our high school was having cheer-leading tryouts and I didn't make the team, but my " friends did." So once school started, they stopped talking to me. They left me to fend for myself walking into the world of high school. But I was OK. It still bothers me till this day, because it makes me feel like I did something wrong, like I wasn't good enough to be friends with. But I have a few friends now with a tiny circle, and that is something I am more than OK with!!
A question I wished I would have asked was WHY. Why me for anything, if someone wanted me for something. I should have asked WHY ME. I sometimes don't understand why I was chosen to handle this , or do this , or was recommended for this. I love that I was and still am about the impress with everything I do and have done, but WHY ME. Every since elementary school all the way up until now I have been the only, maybe not the only one but the first option. I understand everything i do is my choice and yes, lots of things come a little more natural to me than others, but I just want to know why. I know all I have to do is ask but it be the same answer over and over again, never something different.
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